So, I know that it has been a while since I have last updated my blog. But a lot has happened and I don't want to get everyone up to speed, so I am just going to start fresh in 2013. That is if nothing happens to world. But for now I will be MIA again for a while. I need to try and get myself feeling better.
Thank you all,
Alicia
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
What is it really? A social network that came together back in 2003 and is tearing families and friends apart. Well, that is what I think of it anyways. All I get from it is nothing in return. I get people not telling me things or what is going on in their world. No one wants to be around me. I try and try and try and every time I try, no one wants anything to do with me. What the heck is up with that. I really am about to cancel my account. I don't get it anymore. Why should I even have one? I am trying to get my foot in the photography biz and no one wants to even trust me with taking their picture. Its like they think I am going to make their family or friends not trust them or something. I am not a world famous or even city famous photographer, I just want to get known. If I get known, then I have clients. If I have clients, then of course I can have my clients trust to take their photo's. The only people that have trusted me to take their photo's were my dad and my step-mom. I did their wedding photo's. I did a pretty good job if I say so myself. But who cares. No one. They just want to critque me and tell me what I should do. They don't even care about me. So, why am I still even here. Later!
Monday, September 13, 2010
My Scare!
On Saturday, September 11th me and Michael just got home from picking up some firewood down by his parents house. So we get home and it is like 10:30 pm and everything is fine. I'm fine, the kids are sleeping. Everything is fine. So after I take a shower and get into bed, all of a sudden my stomach is getting some terrible pain. The pain that most people would not want to handle. I mean, it felt like contractions. I thought that I was having another baby at this point. I was so hopping that it wasn't too. I thought that there was nothing to really worry about. So I get some water and time passes by and nothing exciting happens. Well, at 3:30 in the morning I all of a sudden get the feeling that I have to vomit. I mean, everything came out. It was unreal. I couldn't believe it. My stomach felt better, but the pain wouldn't stop. I tried calling for Michael to come and help me, but he wouldn't get up. So I finally get some water again and this time it didn't help. The pain was just unbearable. I couldn't believe it. So this time, I actually got Michael up. He calls up my dad's wife (Jamie) and comes to watch the kids while they were sleeping. We go to the hospital.
On our way we got lost going to the hospital. I couldn't believe it, but Michael was tired and I know how he gets when he is tired. Anyways, I sign in at the ER. and so far everything is fine. Then my name gets called while we were waiting for the triage nurse to come and do some vitals on me. Yeah, I was happy to see him. Then we could figure out what was going on with me. I could barely get myself up to walk up to the nurses cubical. So they had to get me a wheelchair. The last time that I was in a wheelchair was after Kasandra was born. Then they brought me into a room where I could finally lay down. Well, I had so many tests done it was unreal. They did a urine test, blood test, 2 CT scans, and 2 ultrasounds. I couldn't believe it. The doctor was thinking that I might have a urinal tract infection. That wasn't it. They they also decided to see if I had kidney stones. Nope, not it either. They did, however check to see if I was pregnant. I am so happy that I wasn't. Then when they did the ultra sounds, they decided to check out my IUD that I had put in like about a little over a year ago now. It was migrating towards the muscle of my uterus. I couldn't believe it. That's why I was in such pain, and I throw up. I still think that there is something wrong. Well, they did tell me that I had to see my OB/GYN. So I tried to make the appointment yesterday and they told me to wait until this morning to make the appointment.
But yesterday I was under so much pain killers I could barely do anything. I couldn't even hold my own child. It was sad. I missed seeing my son go off with his father and I didn't even get to say goodbye to him. I missed him so much yesterday. I feel like a bad parent, but I know that I'm not a bad parent because he still comes back to me even he doesn't see me before he leaves. I was sleeping most of the day yesterday. That was fun.
So, today I go to the OB/GYN to see what is going on with my IUD. I was so happy and relived that I was going to get my original OB doctor. I really didn't want to see a different doctor. I love my OB. She is like the only one that I trust. So to make a long story even longer. We finally got the IUD taken out, and now I am on the depo shot for 3 months and then I think that I am going to go back onto the IUD. Only because I like the IUD a lot better than having to make an appointment to see a nurse every 3 months for a shot.
What a scare right!
On our way we got lost going to the hospital. I couldn't believe it, but Michael was tired and I know how he gets when he is tired. Anyways, I sign in at the ER. and so far everything is fine. Then my name gets called while we were waiting for the triage nurse to come and do some vitals on me. Yeah, I was happy to see him. Then we could figure out what was going on with me. I could barely get myself up to walk up to the nurses cubical. So they had to get me a wheelchair. The last time that I was in a wheelchair was after Kasandra was born. Then they brought me into a room where I could finally lay down. Well, I had so many tests done it was unreal. They did a urine test, blood test, 2 CT scans, and 2 ultrasounds. I couldn't believe it. The doctor was thinking that I might have a urinal tract infection. That wasn't it. They they also decided to see if I had kidney stones. Nope, not it either. They did, however check to see if I was pregnant. I am so happy that I wasn't. Then when they did the ultra sounds, they decided to check out my IUD that I had put in like about a little over a year ago now. It was migrating towards the muscle of my uterus. I couldn't believe it. That's why I was in such pain, and I throw up. I still think that there is something wrong. Well, they did tell me that I had to see my OB/GYN. So I tried to make the appointment yesterday and they told me to wait until this morning to make the appointment.
But yesterday I was under so much pain killers I could barely do anything. I couldn't even hold my own child. It was sad. I missed seeing my son go off with his father and I didn't even get to say goodbye to him. I missed him so much yesterday. I feel like a bad parent, but I know that I'm not a bad parent because he still comes back to me even he doesn't see me before he leaves. I was sleeping most of the day yesterday. That was fun.
So, today I go to the OB/GYN to see what is going on with my IUD. I was so happy and relived that I was going to get my original OB doctor. I really didn't want to see a different doctor. I love my OB. She is like the only one that I trust. So to make a long story even longer. We finally got the IUD taken out, and now I am on the depo shot for 3 months and then I think that I am going to go back onto the IUD. Only because I like the IUD a lot better than having to make an appointment to see a nurse every 3 months for a shot.
What a scare right!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Man blames Woman, Woman makes Excuses....
Tonight at my class I learned that man will blame woman for their problems and put it on them. And woman will make excuses what is wrong with the situation. I learned this tonight.
So I get home and my ex-boyfriend had a friend of his brought a supea to my house to change the parenting schedule to Wednesday nights at 8:30pm so that Jacob can go to this AWANA thing that he wants our son to go to. Well, when I heard about all of this, I read what was on the supea and then I looked up this church that he is supposedly going to, Southside Baptist Church of Sunfish, Minnesota. I looked it up and the class isn't on Wednesday nights. It is on Thursaday nights. What the heck! I don't get it. What is he trying to do? Does he think that I don't look up this crap. I don't get it. Well, I am not going to have any excuse for this, but he can blame me for everything that happens in Jacob's life. He (Ben) should realize that life is not blaming the other person for what just happened.I will not be blamed for the justice of my son and his actions. I will not be blamed for my ex-boyfriends actions. I will not make up any excuse for my actions, for I am a woman of rights and authority of myself. I will not be pushed around for the type of person I am. I will not be pushed around for being a WOMAN! There is nothing wrong with just being who I am. I will try and change the excuses that I have in my life and change it for the greater good. I will be me and truthful.
Before I say anymore, I will get going.
Later my peeps!
Labor Day Weekend.....
So over the Labor Day Weekend Michael, and the kids and I had a pretty decent one. Saturday Michael had fixed my car. We had to get a new fuel pump for it. I couldn't believe how long it took him to fix it. But we got it done. I mainly stayed inside to watch the kids because I didn't want them to get into any trouble. Jacob wanted to be outside watching him. So I let him go out and watch him. Jacob absolutely loves watching Michael fixing the cars or what not. It could also be putting up a simple wall or whatever. He loves it! Then on Sunday Michael started to organize the shed. It is turning out great. We got started on this project now and soon, hopefully very soon, we will get it finished. We still have a closet that we need to finish as well. I can't wait for that to be finished.
Well, Monday, Labor Day, it was one of the most boring days that I think that I have ever had. Despite spending some time with Jacob and my dad and everyone, I had tried to forget that Michael was off working with his dad. Even though it would have been nice if Michael were home with us doing what a family normally does. But there is no getting over that barrier. Well, yeah.
So, I guess that this is just going to be another year full of another adventures that we will just have to over come. I don't got to school and I am a stay at home mom at the moment, that is looking for a job. Anyone want to give me one!?!? Wow, am I desperate or what...
Well, laterz peeps!
Well, Monday, Labor Day, it was one of the most boring days that I think that I have ever had. Despite spending some time with Jacob and my dad and everyone, I had tried to forget that Michael was off working with his dad. Even though it would have been nice if Michael were home with us doing what a family normally does. But there is no getting over that barrier. Well, yeah.
So, I guess that this is just going to be another year full of another adventures that we will just have to over come. I don't got to school and I am a stay at home mom at the moment, that is looking for a job. Anyone want to give me one!?!? Wow, am I desperate or what...
Well, laterz peeps!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
One Follower!
I finally have one follower. I am so happy. There is nothing on this earth that won't stop me from celebrating. I hope that, that one follower turns into more at a later date in time. Because one turns into two, that turns into three and turns into a party!
The Little Old Lady!
Think about this for a moment if you will....
A little old lady is at the stop light just about ready to cross, you decide that you want to help that little old lady cross. Do you think that she will say "No, I'm waiting for someone better than you to help!" Or do you think that she will accept and let you cross her across the street? Just think about it for a moment. There really isn't much to think about. Because that little old lady will let accept your proposal and let you help her cross the street.
Why would I bring something up like this? Well, it has come to my intention that we are interviewing others for help. When we really shouldn't. Why would I interview my own grandmother to see if she has what it takes to make homemade cookies? I wouldn't do that. She offered me some homemade cookies and I would gladly accept them. Our society is based on what we know and what we can do. But we never let those that offer the help and give them their opportunity to shine.
I know photography (okay, not as much as everyone else, but I do know some) and I notice that in every photo that I take, we are helping each other with the pose that will look great. It's not like I am going out of my way to look for someone to help me figure out what pose is best for that situation. I don't think so. You need to act fast and put into consideration that there is only two of you and you need to do what is best for you and your client.
Help is defined as 1) action given to provide assistance; aid; 2) a person or persons who provide assistance with some task, 3) a person employed to help in the maintenance of a house, and 4) correction of deficits, as by psychological counseling or medication or social support or remedial training. If you look at the first defination we are providing assistance (aid) to the other that has not accepted the help. But the offer is there if the person is looking for the help that they need. Now look at the second definition, there is more than one person that can help. But the help that was offered is being used. It is being countered. The first definition is showing a uncountered assistance that is not being used. Why do you think that we give this type of offer? We give it because we care about the other person.
Now, lets go back to the example that I had given in the first paragraph. That little old is going to take your assistance because she knows that there is something that is willing to help and provide to her the assistance that she wanted. Even if she didn't want it, she took the assistance. Sometimes I think that we take ourselves and our friends and family members for granted. Maybe that is something that we all should look at.
A little old lady is at the stop light just about ready to cross, you decide that you want to help that little old lady cross. Do you think that she will say "No, I'm waiting for someone better than you to help!" Or do you think that she will accept and let you cross her across the street? Just think about it for a moment. There really isn't much to think about. Because that little old lady will let accept your proposal and let you help her cross the street.
Why would I bring something up like this? Well, it has come to my intention that we are interviewing others for help. When we really shouldn't. Why would I interview my own grandmother to see if she has what it takes to make homemade cookies? I wouldn't do that. She offered me some homemade cookies and I would gladly accept them. Our society is based on what we know and what we can do. But we never let those that offer the help and give them their opportunity to shine.
I know photography (okay, not as much as everyone else, but I do know some) and I notice that in every photo that I take, we are helping each other with the pose that will look great. It's not like I am going out of my way to look for someone to help me figure out what pose is best for that situation. I don't think so. You need to act fast and put into consideration that there is only two of you and you need to do what is best for you and your client.
Help is defined as 1) action given to provide assistance; aid; 2) a person or persons who provide assistance with some task, 3) a person employed to help in the maintenance of a house, and 4) correction of deficits, as by psychological counseling or medication or social support or remedial training. If you look at the first defination we are providing assistance (aid) to the other that has not accepted the help. But the offer is there if the person is looking for the help that they need. Now look at the second definition, there is more than one person that can help. But the help that was offered is being used. It is being countered. The first definition is showing a uncountered assistance that is not being used. Why do you think that we give this type of offer? We give it because we care about the other person.
Now, lets go back to the example that I had given in the first paragraph. That little old is going to take your assistance because she knows that there is something that is willing to help and provide to her the assistance that she wanted. Even if she didn't want it, she took the assistance. Sometimes I think that we take ourselves and our friends and family members for granted. Maybe that is something that we all should look at.
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