My Out-burst

Aaaahhhhh.... Explain to me why I don't get what is explained to me. I tell people what I want and it never happens. I just want something to happen. I know that my ex-boyfriend wants his money, but I really don't think that it should be paid. Is there something wrong with that! He already owes me a lot of money as it is. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs. I don't get it. Please, someone tell me why I should pay him. Oh-well. I guess that I have to do what is said by others. I just don't want to pay him. He shouldn't deserve any money from me. I am not his b*i*t*c*h. I don't know what else I can do. Well, I guess that I let out what I really needed to let go.